Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Let's Get Physical...

What I need right now is a huge comforting hug. Things are so crazy right now.
I am thrilled about Mike coming home, but dreading his leaving again. Because I KNOW where he goes next. And I am terrified about it. I keep having these morbid thoughts, and I just don't know how to make them go away.
My MIL is sick. I'm terrified of what is to come.
I've been thinking alot about the situation at 'home'. My Mom, Sister and Neice. It just pains me to see my sister in so much pain, her daughter needing her and my Mom so stressed about it all.
Throw in the everyday madness around here and I just want to sit and sob for a few hours.

My Dad called me tonight. From China. I emailed him on his birthday back in Feb. This is the first I've heard from him since before then. It's frustrating. I would love to have a relationship with my father. I would love for him to be a part of my chidren's lives. He just isn't 'there' for us consistiantly and it hurts. When he called tonight and asked how things are going I broke down. I hate that I did too. I don't want him to see me so raw.

Mike is in the field. I want to talk to him. I need to hear him.

Only 15 school days left until summer. FIFTEEN.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006


I went to Louisiana for a week. Everything bloomed while I was gone... Here are a couple of pictures of one of my dogwood trees. Spring WOULD be my favorite time of year if only I could breathe with out sneezing and see everything through the tears and swelling in my eyes! I must go take care of these darn seasonal allergies.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Change #.. I've lost track!!

OK, so his leave has been pushed back, but he gets to stay home longer!
So, we expect to see him from May 22 - June 10.
The kids are thrilled to get to see Daddy!!

Thursday, April 13, 2006

Coming Home...


He gets to come home from May 8 until the 19th-ish... YAY!!!!!

and a big comfort, the Army is picking up the tab!!! $1600!!!


Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Thursday, April 06, 2006

A Little Nothingness

Borrowed, from Sillypants ( http://mccfamily.blogspot.com/ )

Describe yourself using only one word.

1. Yourself: caring
2. Your Lover: selfless
3. Your Hair: long
4. Your Mother: nurturing
5. Your Father: distant
6. Your Favorite Item: laptop
7. Your Dream Last Night: forgotten
8. Your Favorite Drink: water
9. Your Dream Home: here
10. The Room You Are In: cozy
11. Your Pet(s): stupid
12. Who You Are Now: Mom
13. Who You Want to be in Ten Years: graduated
14. What You Want to be in Ten Years: secure
15. What You're Not: ignorant
16. Your Best Friend: away
17. One of Your Wish list Items: Mike
18. Your Gender: female
19. The Last Thing You Did: wake-up
20. What You Are Wearing: pajamas
21. Your Favorite Weather: autumn
22. Your Favorite Book: any
23. The Last Thing You Ate: York
24. Your Life: fulfilling
25. Your Mood: mellow